It’s about the journey.
One of the things that scare me the most is uncertainty.
I’ve always felt that I must know where I’m going and exactly how is it that I’m going to get there.
Most of the times this was a good thing - Being goal oriented has definitely taken me places.
However, my constant planning and control was leading me into a path that made it hard for me to enjoy life, even my achievements.
My dad used to tell me that I was not very expressive or enthusiastic about things, that I almost looked not happy when good things were happening to me.
I think I lived like that for a long time because my mind was always thinking about tomorrow, always planning what was coming next, all this because I didn’t want life to catch me off guard.
I was certain that life was about going from point A to point B, and didn’t see anything in between.
All this changed dramatically when I had a family crisis between me and my mom that left me (and her) heartbroken.
I should say that I didn’t have any kind of sudden epiphany that made change my ideas about uncertainty, it just gradually happened.
I think that event made me understand that it doesn’t matter how hard I try to beat uncertainty, sometimes things don’t go according to plan.
Life’s ups and downs shape us more than the destinations we have set for it.